Fertility Blog + Podcast

You told someone you're doing IVF and their face lit up like you'd just announced a pregnancy, or a puppy, or an engagement. "That's so exciting!" they said. And you smiled, said thanks, and felt absolutely nothing underneath it. Or worse, you felt dread.

If you've ever typed "why don't I feel exci...

You've just googled things I wish I knew before starting IVF at 11pm, again. Maybe your cycle failed and you're trying to work out what went wrong. Maybe you haven't started yet and you're trying to prepare for something no one can actually prepare you for.

I did nine IVF cycles. Eight of them didn...

You've done everything your IVF clinic told you to do. The monitoring scans, the injections, the blood tests at 7am, the supplements lined up on your kitchen bench like a tiny pharmacy. And still, you're lying awake at 2am typing "why did my IVF cycle fail" into Google, hoping this time an answer sh...

If you've ever Googled "how many IVF cycles before giving up" at midnight, this is for you.

Not because I have a clinical answer. But because I've been that person, sitting in the dark, wondering if the number of failed cycles I'd had was the universe telling me something. And I want to tell you wh...

Guilt has become the junk drawer of emotions.

You know the one… the drawer in your kitchen where everything ends up, because you don’t have the energy to find its real home. Rubber bands, takeaway menus, a random Allen key from Ikea… all shoved together under the label “miscellaneous.”

That’s exac...

You know that moment when someone finds out you’re doing IVF and their face lights up like you just told them you’re getting a puppy?

“That’s so exciting!”
“I feel really hopeful for you!”
“I just know this one is going to work out.”

And you smile politely, maybe even mumble a “thanks,” while insi...

If you’ve ever found yourself lying awake at 3am thinking what if this cycle doesn’t work? What if I can’t handle the grief again? What if I never get to be a mum? Well, you’re in good company. Infertility has a way of turning your brain into a 24/7 worst-case-scenario machine.

I heard a story rece...

To the woman who never thought she’d be here…

Dear beautiful soul,

I know you didn’t picture this.

This wasn’t the dream when you were little and imagining motherhood. You never thought you’d be the one Googling IVF clinics or sitting in a fertility specialist’s waiting room, trying to hold it to...

You know what I struggled with most on my fertility journey?

The wait.

Not the injections. Not the blood tests. Not even the disappointment (although yep, that sucked too). It was the stillness. The nothingness. The freaking two week wait — that strange space where there’s nothing left to do but h...

You're not crazy. You're not overreacting. This really is that hard.

It doesn’t start when you wake up. It starts days before.

You’ve got a scan coming up, and already your chest feels tight.

You can’t focus. You can’t relax. You start preparing yourself for all the possible outcomes, especially ...

Let’s talk about something that no one wants to admit out loud:
You see someone announce their pregnancy - maybe their second, or third... and you feel a wave of resentment.

Your chest tightens. Your jaw clenches. You scroll past like, “Oh yay. Another one.”

And immediately, your inner dialogue j...

I’ve been through 9 IVF cycles.

That’s not a typo. Nine.

So when I say I know the rollercoaster you’re on, I don’t mean it in a “oh hun, I read about IVF once” kind of way. I mean I’ve lived it. The bloating, the blood tests, the hope, the heartbreak, the obsessive Googling at 2am. I’ve been exact...